Now she's back to talking about co-habitating the house, and it will be cheaper for her to go get a hotel room when she needs to be away. She's worried about the financials. Crap, we just both put down freaking $3500 retainers on lawyers.
She said she's looking forward to this meeting on Monday. That's good. I don't know where she is on stopping the D, I think that's slipping away - she said that this is still what she wants and that it's already in motion, and that obviously I want something different and she doesn't want to give false hope. Well, I can't control what she does. I guess I should stop trying.
Yeah, I need to talk less. Mentioned the dumb FB thing, and made some other dumb comments about how I can't comprehend how this would be after - I think it sounded kind of desperate. I need to stop talking.
She said that she can see me struggling even though I put on a brave face. She can see through me. Need to fix that too.
She got home at 3am - went out with a friend who is seperated. Sounds like there was some talking to guys. This really burned me up but I didn't talk ask much about it. She's wearing her wedding ring on the other hand now.
So GAL, right. I said, "I'm going out," and I went out. Well, it was good to get out of the house. I drove around and picked up some real estate flyers, checked out an apartment. Gathering info. And then I went to, yes Safeway and got a sandwitch and a smoothie. YEAH I'm living it up. Went to the bookstore and bought "Divorce for Dummies", and got a haircut. So - well, I was out of the house anyway.
Did you know they've got books for people who want to take their spouse for all their worth? One was called "Hit him where it hurts" - WTF? I looked at books about co-parenting, collaborative divorce, etc. but not sure which would be worth it without looking at reviews.
So we all went to a movie this afternoon - "Shorts" - which made litte sense Took the boys for a walk - I'm starting to see how much exercise helps.
I'll sitck to DB, yeah. Still feel like I'm circling the drain.
