Thanks guys! Feeling better today AND getting some DB mode back post therapy. Luckily H hasn`t been around for any of my post therapy stuff.
My therapist left her H and kids to `go on her journey`. So I guess that`s one of the places we diverge.
Plus she really seems to get where H is at. "You`re driving him CRAZY" even though she hasn`t met him.
So, I`m appreciating her getting me out of anxiety mode(no more xanax!) but think she doesn`t get MLC or PA or whatever it is behaviours H is into right now. Plus she isn`t into that extra step marriage may be capbale of getting to;ie the awakening stage which may happen beyond this misery phase.
I dunno.
I`ve got a roaring toothache tonight though, which no doubt has been sent by God to distract me from all other pain! Thanks, GOd! I need that!
And H is STILL not home. No, he hasn`t texted. AND the kids haven`t even asked where he is.
but he needs space, so I`m OK with that.
I`m still letting him roll on with the mediation route. Let him feel what control is like if he thinks he`s been missing it.
My mainer aim though is to build UP my self confidence. Have fun, stay gentle, humble and forgiving of H. Know my mistakes in this.
And move on, if need be.
Thanks, thanks, thanks for your continued support.
Wouldn`t be at this point without you guys cos no one else seems to get why I`m still here!
