Thanks for the encouragement Dia. It is an answer to prayers to find true love with my W again. This was the wall standing between us and the reason for her resentment and mistrust of me. I want to share myself with her, all of myself, not just part of me.
Gosh it felt like an intervention when she and the MC confronted me on this issue (the A's). It was what I needed though, I needed a push. I was so scared of what might come out of my confession to her. Before now though, I don't think she was ready to hear it - I wasn't ready to tell it - so in that sense the time was now *right* for us to both face this together.
Now we have another mini-crisis... I am out of work again as of Friday. My contract position ended early (not sure why they even call it a contract). I was supposed to go another 6 weeks but they cut it short. We had a bunch of projects fall through and well, it's easy to cut the contract guy when money runs short. I don't miss the manager I was working for (what a total dysfunctional jerk!), but I do miss the paycheck and many of the people I was working with.
Anyway please send your positive thoughts and prayers my way while I look for work once again.
The worst part is that W is worried about not being able to MC due to money issues. She told me last night that she really needs our MC. This woman has helped her so much - She has helped both of us so much. I assured W that we would continue no matter what it took. We will talk this over at MC Monday. Even if we have to go to every other week we will continue.
