Hi Maria, I have read the replies you have gotten and yes all so true, but you know we are only human and forgiveness etc doesn't happen for some, dare I say most, for years and then some. I can see it is a good thing, but we can only get to that place when we are ready. All the other emotions,anger and pain have to be felt and gone through first, supress nothing,it will come back to you otherwise. I am not saying act on the emotions,be fair at all times but gosh you wouldn't be normal not to have anger at this time. Not only do they break our hearts and then some, they jump up and down on them and have us wondering what is actually wrong with us!
When I first came to these boards a very wise person told me that by the time they walk out the door,they have left us a long time before that and have often set up new lives elsewhere or at least have formulated a plan. That is why they seem to get the "new life" together so much quicker than the LBS.
This is such early days for you and you have much to go through to see the end,but when you get there you will be just fabulous. In some ways the realisation that there was nothing we could have done better does help with the healing. Nor was it wasted time and effort because we had to do it for us as much as trying to appease or please our partner. It was a part of who we are.
Can you release any emotions through your art? I wrote realms of poetry! extremely bad poetry I have to say in retrospect-lol. Hugs to you my friend.
