Hey, thanks again ashlee. Im ....alive . Didn't sleep much last night. My friend called my doctor last night and I am going in to see him here in about an hour. I feel like hell tbh. Its stress I know, but I am going in regardless just to make sure things are ok.
When I woke up this morning I lookd at my cell and he had sent another txt telling me goodnight. It made me so sick I had to lay back down a minute. I got so dizzy when I saw that. I dont know how I fell about all this right now, I dont have the energy to deal with it. I need to take care of myself and he is making me literally sick. I cant believe my own husband is doing this to me.
I dont know if I should respond or not but I dont want to. I cant stand the thought of talking to him right now. I am getting mixed signals and Im not that strong.
Im probably going to stay with my friend for a few days until Im feeling better. She has internet (thank god) so I dont go crazy with nothing to do, but i imagine I will be sleeping or trying to most of the time.
SO far Ive held my tea down. I figure thats a good thing. I know many of you have had to deal with the one you love cheating on you. I dont know how you do it. I feel like Im dying.
I will check in later if Im up for it. Thanks all of you. I know it doesnt seem like much but it does help a little.
