Friday Evening: Went to video store with the girls and picked out some movies. Girls, W & I watched "Anastasia" together. It was relaxing. We put the girls to bed. W said she wanted to watch one of the movies I had rented for MIL. I asked if she minded if I watched it with her. She said "Of course not." This in retrospect was a bad move.
We watched "Nights in Rodanthe", not a good plot for our situation. We talked a little after the movie; W mentioned how strong I have been again. But also alluded to how our lives could be better if we were apart. She gave me a hug and this time I held onto it too long. We said good night and went to bed.
Saturday Morning: W is going to get the table delivered to apartment. I am going to play some soccer. I am having a very difficult time this morning. W and I have been pleasant, but I feel distance growing between us. I need to get some discipline and stop obsessing about this. Hopefully soccer will help me get my mind off this.
