Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

So, here's a thin...I don't think he has another W on the side. I cannot discount a possible EA, nothing at all to base it on though. He spends a lot of time with the boys, has completely zoned out of our M. Two nights ago, H actually e-mailed me about our upcoming vacation plans while I was sitting less than 5 feet from him. I got to work and had an e-mail, absolutely positive we were sitting in the same room at the time he sent it.

He swears up and down that he KNOWS there is something more that I haven't confessed. For the longest time, I thought he was playing a game, trying to trick me into admitting something because it absolutely makes no sense.

Here's part of my dilemna~ I love H with all my heart, always will, but at this point, I just don't know if any of this DBing will work because it isn't based on boredom, growing apart, etc. H literally believes I am hiding something from him and the fact that I'm not means that the facts, my facts, will never change! I am not, will not, cannot, try to convince him any different any longer! I am sick of repeating it over and over~there is nothing else, this is the whole truth~ because those are the same words I said when I was still lying and I guess the same words coming out of my mouth pre-truth and post-truth are just that, ONLY WORDS.

If nothing else, I plan to use the books' practices to help make my life and my s' lives better, regardless of our circumstances.

I'l really appreciate some feedback.