Forget about what he thinks or doesn't think. If he thinks you're game playing, that's up to him.
Going dark for you is about getting your head on straight. It's about getting your life in order. You learn that you don't need someone to make you happy. You don't become co-dependent on that person.
The LL are great for when and if he comes back. That's the rub. You have to detach first and honestly let him go in order for you to truly live. Then IF he comes back, it will be up to you to see if he is worthy of you.
Our own self-esteem tends to become so damaged that we need to take care of ourselves first before anything else.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.