I've been looking back over my posts and it must seem like I am a mess. I'm not. Honest. Here is about the only place I have to vent and sort some things out. I appreciate all the folks checking in on me. I really do! I've been trying to identify what has been bothering me. I figure if I can name it, it will be easier to deal with.
Anyway ... last weekend I bought a motorcycle. I had to sell my last one to finance my move out here some 10 years ago. For the longest time I have been debating this purchase. Last weekend I went for a test drive. It's a used cruiser, fully loaded. Ok, so it is an impulse buy. It isn't practical. It isn't a necessity. I want it. I can afford it. It makes me happy. So there. I've had this internal dialogue since I've bought it. It dredges up some old, old issues with me, which I think is a good thing.
This week at work has been horrible, but at least it has allowed me to focus on something other than my M. I'm still standing for the M. I do want it to work out between us. But I'm not standing still. I haven't heard from Her since the court date. I still have some processing I want to do.
