Hello All!!! Thanks for the birthday wishes and the posts.
I'm ok, just been laying low...even lower than usual. Had my "factory recall" surgery in July (hysterectomy) and just been recupperating from that. The hormone thing has been a freakin' JOY, but I'm adjusting. I didn't realize how long its actually been since I posted on here. WOW!
Things are up and down with me and H. I can see that he is making some changes, but I've been burned SO MANY times by him, its just hard for me to believe ANYTHING anymore. There is so much going on with him filing B and finally realizing what all he has done, its just a lot to deal with. I'm so damned impatient too...I want it to be fixed NOW, but that is also one of the things that helped things to where they got to.
I just had to post this today. Not sure why this struck me, but it did. H and I were in his car today and we were talking about OW. I said something about their "friendship" was what got us where we are now and he told me, "It was never a friendship. It was a relationship, it was an affair." Its the truth and I know it now like I knew it then, but why the hell does it hurt so much more when he says it? He has also told me that if it weren't for their D, he wouldn't even be speaking to her anymore, but on the same token they still talk everyday. One doesn't seem to follow logically with the other, or is it just me? No more drama with her, no more messages or contact with her in anyway...so thats been good.
Other than that, just chillin' and trying to live.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option