How long does it take?!?!?!

[redhottie]

I haven't posted here in a long time. I see some of my old friends are still around.

It was two years ago this past June that H dropped the bomb on me. Our 21st anniversary was in August. No mention of it for the second year in a row. I didn't even think about it being that day until the day was half over. Not a tear was shed by me that day, and I spent it having fun with my 2 wonderful Ds.

In Nov. it will be two years since we seperated. I bought a house 1 year ago this week and moved in with my Ds. H sees the Ds 2 nights a week and every other weekend. A month ago he mentioned to them that he would like them to rotate spend a week with me then a week with him. Of course he made no mention of it to me. I was mad at first, but I could now care less about it. The Ds have told me they don't want that and I know it isn't going to happen.

In a week H will be in CA on a job interview. (We live in OH so I don't know why he though about the week to week thing.) H is really unhappy with his job, so if the money is right he might take the CA thing. I year or two ago I would have been so stressed by all of this. Today as I think about it I feel no stress. I feel at peace and I'm just ready to roll with it and see what happens.

H expressed wanted a D more than once. I haven't filed because I'm not done yet or fed up enough. Nothing has really change since I stopped posting except that I seem to be more at peace with myself and my life.