Well, I didn't even finish out the day at work. Every one who saw me just stared at me and asked if I was okay. I said I was on the verge of a migraine, which was true.
Still got emails and calls from H...he is so worried about me and my depression. He keeps telling me everything is going to be fine, we are going to be fine.
So now it's all about my depression, not about him. Funny how when I told him the doctor said I had depression he got angry and said he didn't think so. Crabbed about the cost of the meds...refused to comfort me and told me he had his own problems and couldn't handle mine.
Now, it's all about my depression.
Last night I didn't leave but I just sat out on the patio until I went to bed. I was off today. I didn't feel like doing anything, I just felt like lead. He sent me an email that said Good afternoon, Precious, hope you're resting and having a pleasant day.
Now I'm precious.
Now we're going out for a family dinner when he gets home. We haven't actually "talked" about anything. I don't really WANT to talk about anything because I feel like he's going to twist everything around on me again.
I should just leave. That's the only thing that gets his attention. But the kids pay for that. So I don't know what to do. I feel like if I soften towards him enough to talk and such that he'll say "whew" and then back to normal.
I did find a Retrovaille thing in my area in a few weeks. Thinking about it.
