Don't feel bad. When I found out my W was cheating on me (after months of denying) I threw up in the bathroom. Trust me. You say you don't want to trash your H now, but you will. It's perfectly natural.
"why would he do this tho? He doesnt care about me anymore? He doesnt love me? How do you just stop loving someone like that??"
Who knows? You're not going to get any answers by dwelling over this. Your H up and disappeared one day like that Senator guy who left his state to go traipsing around with his OW in S. America. They get crazy.
There's no sense analyzing crazy. Do what you need to do to protect yourself and your assets.
But for now. Go out and breathe. Run laps around the block, Hit a pillow. Just something to get it all out.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
