About an hour later, he starts texting that he misses me, and starts telling me what he misses (all sexual) and tells me that he hasn't been able to think about anythign else all day, that he has a deal for me that includes him getting to have lots of sex when he get home. I fell for it and asked what the hell did I get out of a deal like that. Answer from him: My c**k in your face and you taking it all. I told him that I did not want to deal.
I know how you feel, Lost. My H has said the exact same thing to me, lots of times, the only difference being that he was sober when he did. I'm sorry your H wasn't more sympathetic to your medical situation, and I hope things turn out OK.
Obviously, I'm no expert in this, but I do think you need to re-evaluate staying in your M; if he's not making any progress in stopping his emotional abuse of you, then you have to protect your own emotional and physical health, and that of your kids. You gave him his chance to seek professional help for his problems, right? If he's not doing that, then you have to enforce that boundary. Please don't let him wear you down.
