I'm actually far more calm and collected than last time. Not sure if I am giving off the exact vibe I want to be. Last time I did a lot of acting "as if", since I was dying inside. I think I will turn up the positive attitude a little.
Thinking it over, probably better off not to text good night. Will likely come across as needy to my wife. I will have the best night I can at home in front of the kids (for their sake and mine)and see what tomorrow brings. I think I will even skip the good morning text tomorrow. In fact, I am now determined to make next contact be initiated by her.
Sometimes just having this place to type out your thoughts and read them helps. Mr. strong and fearless out.
