So...I wanted to post a little about what I like about myself so those that read this dont think i am some obsessed lunatic..
So..here are my great qualities..I am creative, I paint and draw and am quite crafty. I run, I have run 3 half marathons and dozens of 5K's. I am outdoorsy I love kayaking,canoeing,hiking and camping. I love music and know alot about classical music and all types of music..Usually people describe me as friendly and outgoing..right now not so much..I do have ALOT of great qualilties. I volunteer with local 5k's and I am quite ambitious meaning I am always looking for a way to make things in my life better. I am a good honest person..so that is what I have that she does not. I have good morals and values and was brought up in a good strong family. We had a good education(12 years of catholic schools). I would do anything for anyone and I am always trying to help people. I throw a great party and have made my D birthday invitations every year since she was born. Unfort. i also have anxiety and I am quite obsessive which inhibits me..I am always looking for acceptance and I dont trust myself as much as I should..those are the bad things I have brought into the marriage. I dont think I am good enough for my H. I make him look like a god..and put him on a pedalstool and have for many years..point is..he could care less that he has a woman that loves him more than anything and would always back him up and pick him up when he falls..a wife that is fun,loving and has alot in common with him..and THAT is worth cheating on? that is worth leaving..my nagging has destroyed the marriage..my insecurities have destroyed the marriage but he has not helped me to feel better about myself..he was never afraid of losing me because he knew I would always be there..He has left me many times over the years..he has made himself out to be much better than me and my family over the years..he has put my family down..I have shown nothing but respect to him and his family..why do I love him so much you might be thinking?? because the good times have outweighed the bad..and I never forget that! I have myself convinced he will have this wonderful life when he leaves..happy..secure..non drinking with a cute smart funny and loving wife..one that gives him a great big house and lots of money and all the things he wants in life..