Just so you know...

[bluerain]

Ok, so today I gave in to my paranoia. I think that its bad to indulge it, so Ive been resisting for a long time! I have been starting to worry that H is sort of schmoozing a new OW. She was M to one of his really good friends, the friend transferred and she stayed, I have been pretty much ignored by the military community since H left, so I thought that they had divorced, she changed her myspace status to single (though for all I know, its always said that), They have been writing on each others FB walls and what not.

So tonight, after a 13 hour work day, I figured, what the hell, she works at the grocery store and it was quiet, so I checked out and asked her if she was moving to where her H was transferred. She said yes, she just was waiting until the place she works had an opening, so she could transfer her job. We had a little more small talk and she mentioned H's trip next month. She said that she thinks that he is coming back to see what he wants and that shes really pulling for us.

I was smiling as I left the store! first, I am super glad that shes now OW2, and second, I am really glad that she and her H are not D. It always made me sad when relationships end.

So like I said, Im not proud that I was basically indulging my paranoia, but I really do feel better now.

Also, I was talking to some tourists today and as I was talking to a woman her husband started to come over and she said "Oh, theres the douchebag with the camera" And I thought, wow, you know, you really shouldnt belittle him! I said some things to H that I am not proud of, and I know exactly how destructive it is! I didnt say anything, just smiled.