I KNOW better than to EVER think things can't get worse. I don't know how many times I've said it in my life. Time and time again and yet, here I am, baffled.

H received a call from SIL regarding issue with S. Apparently a sitch occurred with a cousin a few weeks ago. H and I spoke with S today. S tells us what happened. I tend to believe S and now have a dilemma because stories aren't consistent. Have more information coming, so have to be patient...

What's the problem? S was embarrassed (understandably) but also feels completely betrayed by an adult he trusted (and rightfully so). S tells me after our conversation that he thought if he killed him it would be easier for him instead of the family thinking bad of him. Oh yeah...turn my life upside down.

S assures me he'd never do it. Made up a suicide contract and had him sign it tonight. Also will get counseling appointment set up tomorrow.

I can assure you this will turn into a disaster with the in-laws. No doubt.

I keep telling myself - God does not give you more than you can handle.

Prayers, please.


Me: 39 H: 39
S: 15
M: 18 years
Bomb: 6/3/09
H moved out: 10/15/09
H moved back:5/30/10