I was able to articulate to a friend who asked me to focus on what I want and not "he's not doing x or y," that basically, I didn't get that feeling of "yes. I want to go with him" and without that certainty and enthusiasm, I wont do it. That is all I've got to go on.
The whole "I have plans thing" is weird because I have my kids that night and I'm happy to have them and that is plans enough for me but it is not as if I have something uber exciting and they tell him flipping everything we do...
He's here now working. Very unnerving...surprise, surprise, he HAD to work on his computer here (which I do believe but interesting timing since I still haven't responded to the invite).
So, I need to focus on our separation agreement/ possible filing
and
getting a new place where there is no reason for him to come around AND I have my own sense of peace and property
