I am not, however, in anguish or hysterics. In fact, I am far more cool and calm in my reaction to this than I would have been even two weeks ago. But I do shake my head and roll my eyes upward, feeling the residual pangs of regret that things have turned out so. xW has become the only real pain in my heart now of days, and even that is greatly diminished. Not even the increasing debt and financial burden I am now under due to her actions have given me all that much call for alarm -- there is now a part of me that realizes that I can only do so much myself, and God can see me through the rest.
Part of me is even laughing at it silently as I try to face it -- maybe that's the hysteria so mentioned. Lots of peanut butter and simpler meals for in these next few months, and yet I'm not worried. It is what it is.
