#66 Looking for Susnhine...

[Kalni]

Yes John, all the hurdles you mention I had identified and was fed up with them, and now, we all know why things were the way they were... 25th was my deadline. To myself.

I was reading an article lodo posted a link for on his thread. How a woman, 7 years after the divorce, already in a good relationsip, wishes she had more patience and clear head. I think that did it to me last night.

I am REQUESTING from me to be smart and logical and move forward in a way that I will never be able to regret anything. Sometimes it's almost like a fight between the humanly possible and divine expectations. Hard to explain.

I am moving forward. At some point I have to accept -again- that I need to follow thru and change the page. Once and for all. No holding backs, the grief should not be able to alter the real nusty picture. It is what it is.

Can I give the power of attorney to someone and never have to look into separation agreement and divorce papers? I dont want to look at my kid's names on these papers, dividing their lives and making THEM part of a business deal...
K

[kat727]

It was hard to sign those papers but I know it would have been harder if he had signed first. I haven't gone back and looked at them and it took a long time to look at them after they came. In fact I didn't until I filed for Bankruptcy. It is what it is. And while there may not be any comfort in those words, it is the truth.

Your moving forward will be so much easier than his because you did try. You know that you hung in there even after the lights at the stadium were all turned off. And now it is time to head home.

It is during the hard times in life that you find out what you are made of. You are a very strong woman and your children will look to you as their solid "rock", the stability in their lives.

hugs, kat

[Kalni]

Went out with GFs, it's after 10 here and I am back cause last night I didnt sleep till VERY late. It took me 3 Alexnaders I think to get the painting right, now I have 2 bad ones sitting in my office (almost 10 failed attempts sitting up there that I cant throw away cause I feel them like...mine-sounds familiar?). So I slept a little after 3 I think and woke up at 7. Watered my plants, showered, got a pink dress on and went to work.

We left and went for a coffee, snack etc etc. On the way my shoe...broke. Completely. As if it was made out of paper. The leather just..."broke". Sooooo what could I do? I bought a nice pair of wedges, goldish to match all my clothes and my latest huge handbag and talked with my friends...

H took the kids to a place where a med type of sea turtle lives. Caretta-Caretta. On the island of Zakynthos. It was my son's dream. My son said it was as good as going to the dino park with me. So, we have now entered the ...competition of best parent. Sadly, I think I have won already.

Keeping busy, budget season at work, maybe a new position that I will be given (not a choice)...

I miss my kids. But I think it is best I am alone now.
K

[BobbiJo]

Too bad about the shoe but yay for new ones...

My h has done nothing but plan fun times with the children while I get to take them to doctors and fun like that...oh well they know I love them as your kids know you love them too.

Hope you can get some sleep tonight. At least you are painting again!

[LolaL]

I know how you are feeling. But let me tell you, the past six weeks I have gotten so much stronger. D13 is w/ her father, and I have had that time to just focus on me, getting back on my feet, getting my head together. It may sound selfish, but as much as I miss my tween, I am grateful for the time that I spent not having to worry about her either.

Now, though, I am just glad she is coming home.

Try and focus on you, what you want, what you need, what you are going to do. There is no harm in taking care of yourself.

[frank_D]

So, we have now entered the ...competition of best parent. Sadly, I think I have won already.

War Games

[after playing out all possible outcomes for Global Thermonuclear War]
Joshua: Greetings, Professor Falken.
Stephen Falken: Hello, Joshua.
Joshua: A strange game. The only winning move is not to play. How about a nice game of chess?

Kalni, do you play chess?

[AliSuddenly]

Hey K, sorry you cant sleep, but well done on buying yourself new shoes! You need treats. I'm so sorry you find yourslef in this place,having to digest all those lies and photos and everything. You are coping amazingly well. Love you,
Al xxx

[smith18]

Frank, you win the post of the week award!

[frank_D]

Frank, you win the post of the week award!

(Quoting Jim Cary as the Grinch....)

"Is there a CHECK, perhaps?"

[smith18]

Frank, you win the post of the week award!

(Quoting Jim Cary as the Grinch....)

"Is there a CHECK, perhaps?"

Not quite. Johnny, tell him what he has won....

Frank, you are now the proud owner of the source code for Windows Vista...

/*
GNOT General Public License!
(c) 1995-2007 Microsoft Corporation
*/

#include “dos.h”
#include "win95.h"
#include “win98.h"
#include “sco_unix.h"

class WindowsVista extends WindowsXP implements Nothing
{}

int totalNewFeatures = 3;
int totalWorkingNewFeatures = 0;
float numberOfBugs = 345889E+O8;
boolean readyForRelease = FALSE;

void main {
while (!CRASHED) {

if (first_time_install) {
if ((installedRAM < 2GB) ||
(processorSpeed < 4GHz))
{
MessageBox("Hardware incompatibility error.");
GetKeyPress();
BSOD();
}
}
Make10GBswapfile():
SearchAndDestroy(FIREFOX|OPENOFFICEORG|ANYTHING_GOOGLE);
AddRandomDriver();
MessageBox("Driver incompatibility error.");
GetKeyPress();
BSOD();
}

//printf("Welcome to Windows 2000");
//printf(Welcome to Windows XP");
printf (“Welcome to Windows Vista”);

if (still_not_crashed){

CheckUserLicense();
DoubleCheckUserLicense();
TripleCheckUserLicense();
RelayUserDetaitsToRedmond();

DisplayFancyGraphics();
FlickerLED(hard_drive);
RunWindowsXP();
return LotsMoreMoney,
}
}