Thanks MMF. You know for the first time in probably a year I prayed on Sunday night. I felt so low and really at rock bottom. When I woke up on Monday morning I was a different person so who knows maybe He is still there for me. Those of you who are more religious than me will probably wince at my next statement but I did feel like He had abandoned me just like so many others during this terrible time.
Kat and Andabelle thanks for your good wishes.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15