I haven't responded to him at all. He has since sent me three more emails. The next one said that I am just having an anxiety attack and what a great person I am and how loving he is going to be. The one after that was more of that. Then another one saying he hoped he hadn't made me even angrier.
I told him I don't know how I feel right now. I have to go to work.
I need to not talk to him for a while. I won't get home til tonight. So I guess I have time to think about it some more.
It's always like this. He can say whatever [censored] he wants about how he loves me right now...last night I calmly disagreed with him about something..he was taking his usual approach of "shoot first ask questions later" about the kids. And he went on a TIRADE...abut how I try to turn everyone against him ,a nd I'm trying to WIN!!! Then shut ME down and wouldn't let me talk, told me I couldn't say anything. I got mad and yelled at him, and told him he was acting like a three year old. Silent treatment.
I went twice and apologized for my part. Silent treatment.
Woke up to...silent treatment. (Of course the last time I got ST was when I told him he can't drive drunk with our children in the car.)
Then he called me from the car and blamed me for MY attitude, and that I'M mean, and basically projected all his craziness onto me, and said he is DONE fighting. He means, he can say stuff and start a fight. But then the fight is over. And I started crying and yelled you're right, we're done fighting.
