Journaling: Wednesday Night: Stop by Video store to pick up videos for girls and MIL on the way home from work. Not a lot said when I get home. MIL thank and girls thank me for the movies. W and I sit down at the table while I eat.
M: "How was your day." W: Shruggs shoulders "You know." M: "Anything exciting?" W: "I got my keys." M: "Thats good." W: "How was yours?" M: "OK. I was thinking of taking the girls home for Labor Day." W: "Did you talk to your dad?" M: "A little. He knows enough. He knows you plan on moving out." <pause> M: "What?" <pause> M: "What?" Wife walks out looking as if she is about to cry.
I start watching the Hannah Montana movie with the girls (they are still in the half watch the movie; half play around stage). W reappears about a half hour later in a better looking mood. She watches the movie for a while and then starts removing her braids which she has had in since the beginning of July. I was truly able to enjoy the time with the girls. However, at one point in the movie, D5 started asking W and I about whether she could have a horse after we move (we had been thinking of moving to a larger place in the country at one time). It tore my heart to know how devastated she will be when she finds out the truth.
I help put the girls to sleep and get ready for bed. Not a lot said between W and I. M: "Have a goodnight." W: "You too. Have a goodnight sweetheart."
Finished the story of Tristan before falling asleep. FYI: In the end, he dies of a broken heart.
Wednesday morning: I had planned on going for a little jog this morning, but W was up when I walked down about to read her divorce book. She poured me a cup of coffee, sat down, and we didn't say much at first. I don't know if it is my misperception, but she does not look like she is having an easy time with this. After a pause, W: "So how are you doing?" M: "I'm OK. This whole thing sucks, I'm not going to sugar coat it. But I'm doing OK." - relatively upbeat W: "Yes. It is hard." ... We talk a little about when and how she will move. She says she will move her things labor day weekend while I have the girls at grandparent's home. But asks if she can stay in the house for that next week because it is D5's first week of school. I agree saying, "I don't want to ruin D5's first week of school."
I tell her that I am going to start taking girls back to our old church for Sunday School. We have tried the Unity church for a little while, but I don't like it much and D5 misses old church. W agrees to taking them to the old church on the weekends that she has them. I walk out to start getting ready for work.
I walk down after getting ready, MIL had made me some oatmeal (she is very kind). Then on my way out I say bye to everyone: M: "Have a good day." W: "Have a good day sweetheart."
