Sick today...woke up crying and can barely function. I called in today for everything. I'm just in misery and can't pull myself up. I was ok yesterday...for the most part. The nightmares last night were....awful....I must be losing my mind.
No contact and I don't think Im going to get any. I feel helpless and my hope is fading. I have read thru so many posts...about no contact.. I don't understand why I'm going thru all this. Was I too independent? too sick for too long? Did I not need him enough? God I needed him everyday, some days he was the only reason I wanted to keep going. Some days I wanted to choke him.
Im not ready to give up on him but I dont know what else I can do.
