UPSIDE DOWN and struggling badly.

[MrBond]

I know how you feel. My W had an A with her boss. 25 years older than her. Disgusting.

What country are you in? No matter where you are, there are always places where you can volunteer your time. Sometimes the best healing is to give your talents to someone who appreciates it. Rather than concentrating your efforts and resources on your H who won't appreciate it, think about giving you time to a place in need, or donate the money you were going to give as a gift, to a charity.

Look on meetup.com for free things to do. There are alot of things that don't require money. Think of it this way. No matter how bad off you think you are, there's always someone worse off.

Help them and you will fill the void you feel missing in you right now.