No, I'm staying at the pimp pad. Very lonely there. Going to buy some groceries for the place and cook a meal for a change. Stopped at my mom's first to use her PC.
I feel so lonely, scared, worthless, ugly, confused, and sick to my stomach. She has been positive about our talks, and seems to realize that she needs to cut it off with this guy. I've asked her to give me a deadline for her decision, and she said she needs a week, so Dec. 1 I should know if it's me, or him. It's out of my control.
She is confused, I'll give you that. She really believes that this guy is worth looking into in terms of a long-term relationship. I tried to tell her that she's just playing with fire, and that she's just going to play her feelings for him off her feelings for me, yet get nowhere. It'll just be an emotional ping-pong match, with me as one side, and I told her in no uncertain terms that I will not be party to such a game. She must make a choice for what path to take. Until then, I wait. If she chooses me, great. If she chooses him, fire all the legal guns I have at my disposal.
