He was here tonight and stayed calm. He didn't stay overnight but he usually just sleeps on the couch anyhow. I was very impressed that the progress included some tricky topics where he was very calm and not criticizing me. We had to talk money, and about health issues and we stayed calm. We have a big family outing planned for tomorrow. I'm determined to stay calm and not be clingy. I am feeling panic again inside that this is going so slowly. Now that he and I are calm, I'm wishing there was more reassurance - a touch, a hug, a sleepover, etc. Keeping this in check and being positive with my actions. Not pressuring. Still scary what with all the recent threats of paper signing and "moving to a bigger place" where he can have our son for sleepovers. Trying to keep my hope alive and the big picture in mind of a reconsiliation someday. Trying to see the babysteps over just a couple weeks. Cautiously optimistic. Wish me well.
