It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Had a really good session with C today. Talked about H and our M a lot, and didn't cry at all. That's definitely progress for me!

C said something that really stuck with me. He said that the definition of intimacy is when two people can be vulnerable together. If one isn't willing to be vulnerable, one will never have true intimacy.

The truth is that H has never been able to be vulnerable. EVER! He has to be in control and if he ever feels even a little bit out of control, he can't stand it.

I told C that I would one day like to know what it feels like to be truly loved...... because I am beginning to see that I have never had that......