K4D Rising #4

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We had our C appointment tonight. The C did not talk to the kids tonight. She wanted to talk to me and W first. She will start with the kids at the next appointment.

During the time we talked to the C, of course the C asked if D was certain, and my W said yes and that she would be refiling again next week. I rolled my eyes. W said do you really have to roll your eyes at that? I said yes. Probably not the best DBing move.

Anyways this seemed more like a M counseling session. The C said she is pro marriage and that if we would like she can help us reconcile our M. She talked about her beliefs on M and we each discussed our beliefs etc. She also asked what our concerns were with the girls so we went into that as well.

During the discussion W said all the usual WAW mumbo jumbo. She doesn't like me. She isn't looking at anyone else right now. She just won't be with me etc etc etc blah blah blah.

The C said if we do decide to change our minds, she would again help us peice our M back together. I have to admit though, she said some things that I know my W left thinking about. She said regardless of the outcome, the first thing each of us should do is apologize to the other for things we did that were wrong and ask for forgiveness. I said I have done that more times than I can count. W said nothing.

I told her and W that I do love W and that I am sorry for my past mistakes and that I know I need to work on making changes.

I also said I don't hold anything against W and I do forgive her for her mistakes as well.

All in all, the session was handled pretty well by the C I thought. It wasn't supposed to be a M counseling session, but it just turned into one. I think the C was thinking if she can help peice the M back together, it would help with the kids. Either way, she is there for the kids and now that she has our concerns about the kids, she will start focusing on them. I will give her credit for a good effort at our M. But I just don't think that we are at a place right now where much is going to help anytime soon.

The C did ask W what her issues were with me since W is the one wanting the D. W said she is not going to go into the list of things. The C said that we both need to make sure our focus is on God and what he wants for our lives and kids.

And guess what 25, she is an intern. I thought she was actually very good. I can't list everything she said, but I can say I was impressed with her.

We did talk some about M restoration and she said that hearts would have to change. She said I can't control W and I said I don't try and control W. W agreed. I said W does whatever she wants and I do what I have to do for me. W agreed again.

So in 2 weeks, the girls will be talking to the C. On Tuesday September 8th at 5:30 pm central time.

I went over to a friends house after to eat dinner. My check engine light came on in my car again after I just had it fixed so I could get it to pass inspection. Ugggg...

Kevin