Ok, so what is REALLY happening is that I am feeling guilty because I rejected him so much in the marriage and he really tried to get me to come out with him and it is hard to be in that position now.
Not so detached but seriously, not the end of the world either. I am not off my course, just being honest. This only a temporary lapse. And really, it feels so shallow and harmless compared to where I would go before.
Pertinent to know, I did spend a solid few months doing 180s and trying to be a different wife to him post separation and every time we had sex or had a good time together, he'd get flustered and rationalize it in some negative way. So, I stopped and just got very depressed and immobilized and now in a good place with boundaries and while friendy, I do my own thing and don't engage with him.
