There you go again, leaving me hanging on the edge, not giving any details for the story!!! You'd think your life had gotten turned upside down or something... YEESH!!!
Attempt at humor there, sorry.
I don't know what to say, and I'm feeling more than a little frustrated on your behalf 'cuz there isn't a damn thing I can do for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, obvious question: What are you going to do? Got any leads?
F$*CK. I really hate it when you leave me speechless like this. Could you, like, knock it off already?!
Dammit, now I've gotta go find a Rolaids or something 'cuz my stomache is really hurting, and I'm fretting, and I just chewed off all my nails, which I had worked SO HARD to let grow... (couldn't type with the damn things anyway) AND NOW I RAMBLING.
I couldn't get all my stuff out of my office last night, so I'm here at 7am loading the rest into my car. I work for the most dysfunctional company, so I'm glad to be out. We agreed yesterday that maybe it's best to part ways. The wife was pissed and scared. It put her back into her mode of *You do things that make me feel insecure and unsafe*. I couldn't argue with her.
I made the rounds of our divisions yesterday, at least the ones I worked with, and let them know that my decision had two aspects to it: first, that if I am going to invest such an inordinate amount of my life into a job, I at least deserve support from my superiors that exceeds that which I was subjected to last week (long story). I had a Herculean task ahead of me managing various projects under severe deadlines, and did not have the patience for b.s. Second, the job and the fact that my wife and I worked so closely together had taken a severe toll on my marriage. I was willing to make a desperate attempt to save my marriage by leaving the job. When I told my wife this last night, she seemed to accept it better. She had kept saying that my resignation was purely reactionary. I told her that was not the case. Colleagues who I respect recently told me two things: It's only a job, and if the job's affecting your marriage in such a way, get another job even if it means leaving it without having another one. I have confidence in my abilities, and I have contacts in my industry who I can rely on to land on my feet again. I have a reputation, and it's a good one. When I told my wife this, she calmed down even more, and seems to be more at ease with everyting.
As for me, this is my last assignment at this computer. I'm leaving the office for the last time, and have already set up meetings with peers and a plan of action. I can easily go into a severe funk, but refuse to allow myself to go there. I may not be online as much as in the past, but I intend to check in daily if I can. Wish me luck!
Don't know if you have access to a computa' and I'm sure you're more than a tad bit busy, but I just wanted to drop a line in case you get a moment to check in somewhere to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers.
Crazy Jim says hey. I'm sure he's pulling for you, and if he were posting, I'm sure he'd say something along the lines of "do what ya gotta do, buddy."
Having limited access to a PC, but wanted to drop a note to check in. Wife did something last night that pissed me off, just when we were doing so well.
However, being that we were in the same biz, and worked together in that biz, we have mane of the same friends and colleagues. Last night I went to a function a former vendor of mine was throwing. Saw a lot of people who had heard about my resignation thru the industry grapevine and demanded to know: *what happened!!*. A woman there, who also happens to know my wife and had spoken to her yesterday, told me that she is feeling upbeat about our relationship AFTYER my leaving the company. It was nice to hear this from a neutral source.
Off to take the older daughter to school now, so I can't stay long. I did have a three-hour interview yesterday with a company, and the interviewer is a guy I used to work with and respects me. Trouble is, it's a different industry, so it's a career change. That's a head-scratcher: am I REALLY ready to move into this direction? I've talked about it for years, having a enw career, but now it's staring me in the face, and is a minor cut in pay. Hmmmm...what to do?? Gonna sit on it over the weekend.
Weird thing about my former employer....after they accepted my resignation, I never heard from my superiors again. I had tons of projects on my plate, and more information in my head. You'd think they'd want me to download it for them before letting me loose. I guess dysfunction comes in many colors.
Talk to y'all later. It's a good day. Hope you're all doing well. Everyone, it would be nice to hear from you if you can drop a line (Corri, Johanna, Cathy, et al). Corri, tell Crazy Jim I appreciate his craziness. I need it!
Can't give you much advice on the job sitch as I don't know anything about it, and I'm sure you don't want to go into that much detail about it here. But the best advice I ever got on careers was this: If you wake up in the morning and you are already excited about your day by the time your feet hit the floor, you've got a keeper of a job, regardless of pay. The moment you dread putting that first foot on the floor, it's time to look for another job, regardless of pay.
Don't know if this can apply to your sitch, but generally it's a pretty good measuring stick.
Get your bread/butter/insurance needs secured first. Then you can go back to worrying about your R.
Are you ready for a career change? Don't know. But I think subconsciously, you have been ready for a change for a long time. Now change is flying at you from all sides. I'd say, go with the flow and see where life takes you. Don't try to control it so much. Have the courage, at least for a bit, to say, What the f%$ck. If you respect this guy, that's BIG. It's hard to find people you can respect anymore.
And Cloud, not many people can quit a job without something else to go to, and turn around a find another job within a week. 'specially in these economic times. Don't get too greedy, hm?
Life keeps leading you into new directions. Wierd how the path is never straight. Sometimes when you follow the twists and turns you find a nich that is just for you.
It's good that you are taking the weekend to decide what to do. When things are moving too quickly, like they have been for you lately, it's hard to make good decisions. If this position is something that you have wanted to do, is this the right opportunity knocking on your door? Or can you give it a bit and find something better suited to what you do? Ultimately, what would you be more comforatable with?
Keep us posted as we are a curious bunch. Check out the "Just for Fun" section of the BB, the "Sisters of No Mercy" thread. If you need a good laugh, this is a good place to find one.
How's the Pimp Pad coming along? Have you chosen a color scheme, yet?
Well, my weekend crashed and burned. Hope yours was better than this was for me. I should have stayed in bed and hibernated as cold as it is today. Snow flurries to boot. Feels like winter here so you can gloat about the weather that you are having in LA....
It was a bad weekend. I discovered yesterday morning that my wife had decided to bring the fireman into our home Friday night and have sex with him on our couch. I found it in her journal, and showed it to her. We had the predictable blow-up, after which she left the house and I proceeded to break the glass on every picture frame of the two of us. Then I placed my housekeys on the counter and said that I cannot go back to the house ever again.
She called me later and left a message that she wanted to talk. I finally called her at midnight, and we started with a tense conversation, but then it got reasonable. She said that she doesn't know for sure if she has feelings for this guy or not, that she was just doing it for herself; a purely selfish act to experience it. She keeps saying he's a fantasy, but then she says things that give me the feeling she wants to dicover if he IS the guy for her. I am so damn confused and scared right now, but it is actually drawing me CLOSER to her.
I had an empty greeting card handy, with an "I Love You" theme on it, and wrote her something nice and then went to the house around 3:30 this morning to drop it off on the porch. I couldn't leave. I sat on the front porch because I felt closer to her in some way. I sat there in about 40-degree weather until she woke up to get the paper at 6:45. She looked at me like "what's going on?..." and I just hugged her. She cried, sobbing that she was so sorry, then we sat down and I just held her for about an hour. I talked as gently as I could about forgiveness, our future, how the guy is probably not Mr. Right, and that we need to stop our hurtful behavior and take what's left of the life in this marriage and do something about it!
So, am I stupid? Should I just leave? Should I be so loving and gracious? I can't help it though. I really love this woman. How do I keep her, you guys? HELP!!! I'm dying out here. I'd post my phone number if I could, but that's not wise, I know. I just need to talk to someone.
