The pain you experiened in not feeling attractive to your wife, having that 'gut feeling' confirmed, is probably the same way she felt when your past indiscretion came to light. I don't know that for certain, but I'd say it is a good guess.
I only continue to bring this up because you have an opportunity to walk in your wife's shoes, and that could give you some invaluable perspective. That's all I mean by it, no judgments attached. If you felt unloved and unattractive when you read that, I would well imagine she felt the same way. It could be that when she says she doesn't 'trust' you, what that could mean is that she doesn't really believe that you love her the way she needs to be loved. Conversely, you may want to say to her, "If you don't love me the way I need to be loved, then you need to let me go."
I think this is a little more honest and lets her know what she is up against. See what I mean? And maybe you need to find out how she needs to be loved and see if you have it in you, too.
So are you still employeed? Did that work out okay?
And yes, my H and I would travel to LA if you invited us to a party. We're always up for a Road Trip, provided we can get all our ducks in a row to swing it, you know? I think it'd be cool to go to L.A. -- I've never been. Well, that's a lie, I've been to LAX twice, but I don't think that really counts.
But if you are going to have a party, you have to schedule it between earthquakes and brush fires, k? No street riots, hurricanes, mudslides, or on gubenitorial recall election day. Isn't it wonderful how I set all these parameters for your party?
