I have been telling my wife for months that if she does not love me, for her to let me go. That it's okay. It would hurt, of course, but I'd rather know the truth. She has told me on more than one occasion that she does love me, and can meet me more than halfway on my needs. Then she turns around and keeps the sex life as it was, and doesn't follow thru on important things she says she'll do for the relationship, leaving me feel like I'm not a priority.
In reading her journal and seeing that comment she wrote, I just think that I was right all along, and that she was unwiling to suffer the pain of a breakup, so she lied to me and told me it was fine, when it wasn't. Talk about "cheeseless tunnels". Am I going down another one?
Fireman, or no fireman, I want to avoid tunnels. I want the bright sunshine of realized expectations.
