Corri, your advice is good, and I don't take offense at your comments about the fireman. To be honest though, it wasn't so much the fireman, as it was reading how it good it would feel to her to kiss and make love with a man that she is truly attracted to. The fireman just represented a placeholder for that man, I think. I have long felt that she is not attracted to me in the way I need her to be: attractive enough to want me physically. Reading that comment just confirmed what she kept denying, but I felt was true. (Men have instincts about these things, too.) It still hurt to read it with my own eyes.
I'm happy to spend time with her, and even if my head is telling me negative things, I'm keeping them there. She knows what I need from her, and she knows what she has to deal with. She needs to come to her own conclusion as to whether or not she wants me as a husband and a lover.
If I really threw a party, would you come? Would mean travelling to L.A.
