You sound more sane in the last few posts, what a relief. You are making baby steps in some ways with the W and job, so keep heading in those directions. It may be slow, sometimes a slog through the mud, but there seems to be positive movement with both. I know you want some kind of timeframe as to when this will resolve but there just isn't one. Your biggest obstacle is your W has not come to terms with forgiving you, even though you have done everything possible to gain her forgiveness. If you acheive true forgiveness from her then you will know that the R is possible. Without it, you will have this hang over you and taint the relationship.
Moving out has given me a clearer head to deal with things. I just don't feel as stressed and unsure as I did while I was still at home. I feel like a vagabond without my own place but my friends have been great to me.
I hope that the pimp pad decorating scheme is coming together smoothly. Will you be putting thoses lovely, noisey, beads on all of the doors? People told me that they were for privacy (you can see right through them!) but I think that they were to let you know someone else was in the "pad."
You have attended several functions with her, the movie was her invitation and you have talked, held each other and kissed. I'm really jealous......but happy that things have progessed this weekend for you.
Sounds as if the fireman thing might just have been wishful thinking on her part...You can get unrequited crushes on people just like you did in grade school. Perhaps that is all that it was.
Corri, I like the idea of crashing the party on the beach when things turn around for C9. We can decide what to bring later, but I know we will have fun partying together.
