I used to think so. But now I think she's a nut! I am over the "you aren't liked in the neighborhood comment." But the "and you brought in too much furniture for an apartment" is just off the wall. I didn't know there was a quota on furniture!
I am trying to focus on the 60% today. I haven't shared my troubles with anyone and didn't let my thoughts spin to cause further stress. I took a shower. :-D I have already been chanting the Hayatri everyday and sometimes to Krshna and I think that counts as praying to god. I'm covered for today. I know I'd begun to think I can't find an apartment, and that's not the right frame of mind. I should be thinking, I will find the right apartment. Otherwise I'm sending a powerful mental message that I can't so then I won't. Dangerous thinking. I got very excited about a lead on an apartment in the city near my store & D's school. The guy said it's HUGE. It was about 400 sq ft., his description of high ceilings meant maybe 9 ft. One bedroom so small it would only fit a bed and it was raliroad style - meaning you have to walk thru one room to get to the next. Ugly linoleum tiles throughout. It's $2650. plus utilities. I asked if the price was flexible and he claims that's what he pays and tried to tell me that the rental market in Manhattan has completely rebounded. YA RIGHT, try that on a tourist. I've lived here 23 yrs. He's moving to Nashville for a few yrs and wants to hang onto his "great" apt. What he's actually doing is making at about $500 a month on it. No thanks. Tomorrow I'm looking at the house right next door to me. 2 bd, 2 ba duplex w/ a yard for $1800. That's more like it. That yard has been the bain of my existence and the only downside to my backyard. So this is ironic. It's full of garbage, like old furniture and junk. But you can't see the garbage in the summer cuz the weeds are so thick and 7' tall. I've hated that yard being across my fence so much. It makes it impossible to ever get a grip on the weeding and the mosquitos breed over there like crazy. No one has ever stepped out there since I've lived here. Funny that the guy even mentioned it has a yard when I called. Well, I totally renoed the yard I have now, I can do that one too. I didn't mention that I live next door in case he knows my LL. He lives off site, so he may or may not recognize me & I'm not admitting to living next door unless he does. It would make an easy move. No truck. I'd just move all my garden over the fence. Carry everything by hand that I can, and hire 3 guys to carry the big stuff. I'm really hoping this is it.
And the best news I have today.... My little partner in crime is returning tomorrow! I missed her soooo much. I'm picking her up from the airport in the morning. I'm bitter that I didn't go. We were supposed to go together, I haven't seen my family for over a year. But I stayed back to find an apartment. And I didn't find one anyway, I may as well have gone. Oh well. If I'd gone I may have believed I missed out on the perfect place cuz I wasn't here looking. At least I know there is nothing that got away from me.
Nothing's different but my mental attitude. I'm fine again. Everything will be ok.
