It is very painful right now, but it will be better as you move forward w/your life.
Allow yourself to feel sad. It is natural for you to grieve as you've come to realize this is truly a complete loss for you and the end of something you once built w/stbx.
Even though you feel you've been done w/this for a while, it seems as if this is something that is "final" and "official" so it appears to be very natural for you to be really sad right now.
