Tonight I feel...sad. Unbelievably sad. Beyond imagination. I feel a weight pulling me down, I feel hopeless for the future (not scared), after the 3 weeks of shock and anger, my babies's images resurface. I dont know how to deal with this. I've done all the tricks in the book and more. I've gone back and forth, dealt with my feelings, I avoided, hid, confessed to myself, I've done it all... Dont know what else to do...
