GIMR, this is definitely going to be the hardest thing you have ever done. While no one can tell you what to do, I would say that you need to lean on Him (given your name).

The other thing is that fighting for your marriage is something that is opposite from what the popular culture will tell you. In fact, most people would say you are insane to put up with what is happening. There are some excellent scriptures that you will be able to relate to in Old and New Testament. If you dont think you are in a battle like they were, then you are kidding yourself.

Praying for you.

mmf


Me:56, W:51
D:26,S:24,S:22
Married:18
Bomb 9/27/06
Separated 11/27/06
Divorced 10/6/08
Leaving it up to God