Having simlar thoughts here myself. I was packing last night to go back to friends house and he just ignored that I was leaving. Being ignored has been a big problem as I just have not felt cherished for a long time. It has been a bad twelve hours or so for me.
We are not losers, my dear, we just have spouses that have no idea what they are trying so hard to lose by ignoring us. When and if we make the big decision to make it official and leave for good maybe then they will understand. I have tried to stay and live with this relationship, but I get little in return.
He is a good man, just oblivious to what I need in a relationship. I can't be any more clear, either. He still has not gotten back into counseling, he is stalling on that front, too.
I keep hoping that he will wake up from his denial that I will leave and not come back if things don't change dramatically, but I can't love him into making a change for me. Crappy decisions to try and make.
Weather here is like my mood, dark and dreary.
You will have to let us know about the decorating decisions that you make. Lava lamps? How kistchy. Been watching Christopher Lowell for decorating ideas?
