hey everyone.. it is a good job! But its the same here Mish, takes forever to get anyone to do anything and you get passed around different departments for like a year or more.. but I am taking action and sorting things in like an hour !!! I hate inefficiency. I'm suppsoed to be starting as a trainee FE teacher in a month, I accepted, but now I dont know if I should resign or not!?? Some things never change !
So things are great, I'm very lucky, he is 100% back, so... why am I so down? I actually feel pretty down when I wake up most mornings lately. I told him today I was. Last night I washed sheets, loaded and unloaded the dishwasher, twice, shopped, cooked, hung out washing, made the beds up.. he normally does more housework than me but he was mowing the grass, mending the shed, etc... I joked we were like a 1950's postcard. It all just felt so .. domesticated. I told him all of this, that I was worried we were already losing the excitement, fun and romance. He said.. but this is what I like, its what I want, I know you want fireworks, but its called contentment, what we have is amazing, its real, its solid...
I cant complain at that can I? I guess its hard that he doesnt want to ML normally (apart from a couple of times the past month), especially as I found 4 or 5 boxes of condoms in his cabinet when I first moved back in.. its like, wow, were they having so MUCH s*x that they never wanted to run out of damn condoms!?? Or maybe there were so many (some unopened) because he went off sex with her too. I want to ask him these questions. Maybe I will later ! (bad idea huh). I know he went off it with her, as he told BMF and then dumped her anyway. Its not just that though.. maybe its resentments surfacing, maybe its just the anticlimax after the initial euphoria of reconciling, maybe its because noone phones me anymore (or him) now we are back together!! And BFF has reacted badly to me reconciling and has stopped calling me too sadly..
