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I recall reading a post a while back from either Puppy Dog or Gucci. Anyways, it was asked in this post "why do you want to be with a woman who doesn't love you and doesn't want to be with you?" I can't get this question out of my mind this morning. I'm asking myself, "does my W really not love me...does she really not want to be with me...or is it that she simply wants the pain to go away?" I love my W and want to be with her, and I also want the pain to go away. But I'm still here trying to fight the good fight regardless of my pain, and most importantly, I don't want to scar the kids with the pain of a divorce.

I know I'm supposed to be re-detaching at this time. I guess this type of thinking is part of the process...I went through it 4 weeks ago when I finally gave up.

Just some "journalizing"...
LFH