Long Journey .......... advice please

[Sanderika]

Hello Cas,

Been lurkin' and thinkin' and thinkin' and lurkin'.....

I am happy that the dinner went very well. I agree that H must have been deep in thought....looking at his lovely family and at the same time realizing he walked out on all of them. I wonder if H was feeling a wee bit sorry....If so, good for him!!!!

It's feels very good to spend time with the kids, especially a son and especially when the day goes as well as yours did!!! I really enjoy the times my son and I have a great day. Of course he's 13 and still requires help from me to get around, I hope we always have a special bond.

I love having my son....I wouldn't know what to do without him. I am glad he is a son. He has become the most wonderful, caring, thoughtful, kind, loving person. I feel this life lesson he has had to learn at a very young age will forever teach him the right way to treat loved ones.

He has become "my son". He has had such little contact with H these past 4 years that he really doesn't regard him as a Dad, he just thinks of him as his father and lives without thoughts of him. My son is loyal to me and guarded of me. Hs presence has little place in son's world.

I make sure when H is around son treats him with kindness and respect. I can say that son doesn't love him. I can say that H probably loves son, doesn't show it ever. They are definite strangers to one another. I am fine with it. I didn't cause it. This is another one of those choices H has made and has to own. A very stupid man would neglect and abandon his only son.

OK, convo is turning dark, it should be light and fun.....

I hear you about living the next year for you. I am all about doing the same. I am ready for me..... H can go (insert whatevah you like here)........!!!!!!!!!

Gotta really run for work now.....

(((((Hugs to you all)))))

Sanderika