My sitch...long but please indulge me

[billclay18]

Interesting conversation with my W last night. W came in my room last night as I was on the computer and made some small talk for a while. I went downstairs to get something to drink and when I got back she was in her room. I said “goodnight” from the hallway but got no reply. She came into my room and asked what I said. I told her I said “goodnight”. She then sat on the bed and continued with the small talk. I knew she had something on her mind but didn’t ask. Then she proceeds to tell me she was planning to leave me a note on Friday to say “goodbye”. I told her we’ll have time to say goodbye before she moves out Saturday. She then asked if I was going to be O.K. I looked her in the eye and told her I was fine. She then said she knows she broke my heart and hopes I start to heal once she’s gone. I again looked her in the eye and said “things happen, I’m fine…you just take care of you”, turning my concern to her well being. I showed her a strong man that will be just fine without her. This was the first time I’ve seen pain in her eyes. Whether it’s just the reality that it’s over (is it???), guilt or whatever, who knows. She seemed to be hurting and I felt bad for her. I resisted the temptation to try to console her. As much as I wanted to hold her and tell her it will be O.K., I didn’t. I think she needs to deal with what she’s feeling on her own for now. Conversation then turned to small talk again for another 20 minutes or so until I told her I was going to bed.

Not making too much of this, but it was good to see that side if my W again.