Hi Nell, What I have learn't has been passed on to me by all the wonderful generous friends I have made here. Valuable first hand advice that money cannot buy.
Once you let go of your fear and grief and decide that this won't beat you, you to will find that you will start to take baby steps. That's what we are all here for, support, advice, hand holding, shoulders to cry on, encouragement and prayers for each and every one of us.
Oh and I am getting better at dodging the bullets that get fired at me and you will too Nell, remember patience. We have to have the patience of saints.