Thanks for checking on me.:) I am doing pretty well. I am trying to focus on the positives but yet sometimes still just can't believe who he has become and it is icky, someone I wouldn't choose now for sure. But I do have faith that the "real" him is in there somewhere.
We seem to be in a bit of a pullback after some positives. In my opinion things seem a lot more relaxed between us, though, in general. I no longer feel on eggshells all the time when he is in the same room. I just keep being me. He had been interacting more with me but the past few days isn't as much. HOWEVER, he has been home more in the past week or two than he had been in a loooong time and he is interacting a lot more with the kids and playing with them which is great. They are so happy. I love seeing it but then it makes me wonder if he pulls back from them again how it will affect them. He has even started again in little ways being a "parent" again and not just playing with them. I am trying to focus on each day and not think too far ahead.
