I know what you mean about the dance and trying to figure them out. It is impossible. We are definitely in a pull back mode after some positives it seemed.
I'm sorry your weekend was so up and down. Just think of the ups though!!! He was home with you all day Saturday!
It's ironic because it seems like some of our realizations/progress have been parallel. I too have finally come to the conclusion that I need to just be his friend but right now a kind of distant one. He will have to lead. I will just be friendly and kind with no expectations.