I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm stronger than this. What have I been doing?
Thank you Karen - yeah, I may have to talk to the doctor about this. Damn, i've got to pick myself up. I hate this being pathetic business.
Hmm maybe I shouldn't tell you guys about it
Yeah, my wife is easily rattled. That was the comment she had made before, how I'm good at calming her down. That's been part of my role in the M. It could be that, when i don't have the resources to do that, things go downhill.
Well, took the kids (& dog) for a walk, hopefully that will help us all sleep better tonight. W is off at a movie with friends.
Kind of pissed me off last night, she she says, I'm getting on facebook to find somebody to chat with. I"M SOMEBODY! I'm RIGHT FREAKING HERE.
I realized last night that I have habits to make sure I don't spend too much time alone, because I know it bothered her. The more I think about it, I was making an effort these past X months. She told me she needed me more, I changed my behavior. I think it was already a done thing in her mind.
Frankly I think I'm finally entering that phase where I'm mad. I'm thinking of horrible things to say to her. Not that I will of course.
