No joke. His advice was all good. Esp. take a shower every day. LOL. Did one of you DB pals send him in? Michelle??? It looks like it could be one of your ideas. Honestly, it was so weird and random and I hope it's what I needed to snap out of the funk. 60% probably is good, but how would I know when I've been so focused on the 40%? That was just weird. It was all unsolicited. He asked me 4 questions, my age, my favorite flower, my 2nd favorite flower, and my lucky #. I answered 49, orchid {he asked how to spell}, lotus, told him the notion of a lucky # is not somehthing I ever understood - so he said some number you like, I answered 7. After that he talked all those things and then left. I was left sitting here thinking, what in the world just happened?? Everytime I remember him saying, you love someone, but he doesn't love you, I tear up. That idea never entered my head. I have always believed Marky loves me, he even said so. But clearly his notion of love is pretty different than mine or we wouldn't be where we are. So in some sense, I do love him differently than he loves me. That was a reality that I hadn't really considered and it hurts. That's the pain that's been hiding - the fear that he doesn't. I'll never forget how I felt the world was pulled out from under me when my xh said ILYBINILWY. It was a stabbing horrible pain. And now it's possible Mark doesn't love me also. Ouch. Oh jeez, I'm thinking too much again.
